First of all can I say out loud just how happy I am to be alive. I have so much that I want to share, and I look forward to sharing a little bit everyday. This has been a surreal yet poignant journey. My deepest thanks go out to all of you who while I was fighting for my life have donated money, time, prayers, flowers, etc…to help pay for what insurance hasn’t covered for this amazing doctor and the stellar care that I have received. I always thought it was crazy to be paying for insurance every month for all these years, and never going to the doctor because I didn’t need to! My family and I are so grateful that I had this insurance for “catastrophic events” and it’s wonderful to know that I have survived one and I’m looking forward to financially surviving thanks to all of your continuing support.
Another thanks to all of you who have supported me in the clinic by accepting Tiffanie as my Colon Therapist. Your support has kept the clinic alive which helps to support my daily living needs. I’ve had to make some big changes already and I’m faithfully walking into the future not knowing exactly what is ahead or the time frame that it requires yet I am confident and committed to recovering fully.
Please join me in the faith that my eyesight will return. That I will receive hearing in my right ear as the nerves heal and return to their proper position. I look forward everyday to working towards feeling comfortable and capable outside of my own home.
With all that said, I am so happy that I am two weeks without my walker!! I know that sounds simplistic although you’d be surprised when you have to break it down how much there is to balancing, holding your posture and walking in a straight line! And you know me, there is always going to be some profound meaning attached to each one of these accomplishments which I look forward to sharing with you in hopes that you find value in these tidbits of enlightenment, as I do. I look forward to sharing my healing experiences with you daily, or as much as possible. This is my intention and I hope to meet that goal everyday.
I owe my life and the privilege to be here to so many of you; please allow me the space to mention a few:
To Tiffanie, for being a committed bulldog to do whatever it took for me to be guided along the path of MRI’s, Neurologists, and eventually Dr. Maughan, who removed the grip of death from my brain. She has served with her whole heart in the clinic and dedicates herself to be a valuable servant and practitioner for all of you there, to carry on my work. Thank you for giving me the anchor, “I’m not going to lose another mom”.
To Cory, for her unfailingness of “being there” for me, at every crucial point in my life. You’ve seen me at my most challenging moments, yet always bring me comfort to know that I am valuable and deeply loved. Thank you for being the sister of my dreams.
To Karen, who has been my “twin sister” since seventh grade. Of course we would find each other and live our lives together through the thick and thin of it. It is you that I always run to for comfort, safety and peace when the storms rage in my life. You are my sanctuary.
I want to mention most specifically all of my children; their prayers coupled with yours have been the fertile ground in which I have found new life:
To Nick and his piqued consciousness of reality which gave me comfort and perspective to accept and have faith.
To Portia, for bringing new life in the name of Andrew, that gave me the desire to see her and hold him, above all odds; and for always listening to me, and knowing just what to say.
To Anastasia, who gave me the opportunity to worry about her pregnancy and how she was doing, and look forward to Austin, instead of being fearful and dwelling on what was happening to me. For being the girl that “makes it happen”, I am grateful.
To Mikkel, for his solid ground and solid love that he always extends to me when I feel like a jellyfish.
To Arielle and her vibrant soul, which brought light to me when everything was dark around me, literally.
To Aleisha, for her deep feeling of safety, that shoots always to my heart, and lets me know that everything is going to be okay.
And lastly, (haha, not really, she’s my youngest) to Noelle, for saving my life. A few weeks before surgery when she reminded me to practice what I had just taught in my November Mind-Mastery class: “what you’re thinking is what you get”. In her soft profound way, she brought me to choice and told me “I’m only 21 years old and I don’t want to lose my mom…” Her statement anchored me to my body. Her gentle facilitation assisted me to CHANGE MY MIND to live and focus only on living. Even though my body was dying, this choice was the most difficult part of this experience. Changing my mind JOLTED me into choosing to live, and because of it I have manifested this new life, through God’s gift, to share with you all. Literally, Noelle has been beside me through all of this, and between her and my mom I am here because in there love, I found my life and the strength and power to create it again.
Thank you, thank you, thank you.